I remember the night of my first conversion to Jesus as an adult. It came about due to desperation. I was at a very low point in my life, where I lived in hopelessness and a false identity. God rescued me when I finally had the boldness to give up my fears to Him and allow God to come break into my sin, brokenness, and crumbling heart. He not only came into my life, He won me back to the side of Heaven. For some of us, it takes a desperate boldness to cry out to Him.
This is just what happens with Bartimaeus. You probably remember the story, but here it is from the Gospel of Mark, if you don’t:
“And they came to Jericho; and as he was leaving Jericho with his disciples and a great multitude, Bartimae′us, a blind beggar, the son of Timae′us, was sitting by the roadside. And when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to cry out and say, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” And many rebuked him, telling him to be silent; but he cried out all the more, “Son of David, have mercy on me!” And Jesus stopped and said, “Call him.” And they called the blind man, saying to him, “Take heart; rise, he is calling you.” And throwing off his mantle he sprang up and came to Jesus. And Jesus said to him, “What do you want me to do for you?” And the blind man said to him, “Master, let me receive my sight.” And Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.” And immediately he received his sight and followed him on the way.” -Mark 10:46-52
This is one of several stories of God responding to the desperation of another, but many times it takes boldness too! Think of the Centurion, who asked Jesus to heal his servant or of the woman with the hemorrhage who touches Jesus in the crowd, to seek healing. What desperation that leads to boldness!
We too can have the gift of God’s grace in our lives, when we feel desperate. But, it has to be met with the boldness to cry out to Jesus for help! Remember, that God has already closed the gap between us, by sending His Son to die and rise again for our sins. We already have the gift of the Holy Spirit, if we just ask for it.
God wants to answer your prayers. But, do you hunger enough for God’s help to acknowledge that you need him? Try asking God to help you now and remember these words of St. Paul:
“We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For while we live we are always being given up to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us, but life in you.” -2 Cor 4:8-12